I am a girl and I love my blog. My blog has gone through years with me, all the happiness and sadness. I am trying to change the style of my blog to share happier moments. I will be sharing food, travel and different places.

I realise that it's hard to meet up after we went to separate schools.
Because we are all acending in different directions.

'09 for me was very busy too.
i have to work very hard because i don't want to be despised again.
to be treated like mud.
i can't forget victor telling me,"haha retainee! haha!"
yes that same victor from 4e from kranji.

so i studied hard and other times i was with eric.
i had to juggle with my studies and relationship and my that tuition.
it's very tiring.

when my exams were over i went to read joey's blog and i got very sad.
i felt so guilty that i wasn't aware that she is unable to cope with her studies.
it's sad that she felt that her a level is failing.
now i understand why she is so shock that i retain too.
it's not surprise but guilt.

then there is once i was suppose to meet xue ying and xinpei.
they forgotten me. really.
they met up first thinking that i was in school.
when i had already called them up to tell them my school was over even before they left home.
they just don't remember then they tell me they are going to go home and ask me not to come.
what should i do? hate them? i won't.
because i believe i will forgive them, they are my friends.
i did. i also believe that there is another part of story.

Remember i once ask to meet up for movie screening?
only joey reply me. she thanked me for organising.
then ng mun reply me asking me if i wanna watch joey's concert. i said yes.
but i wasn't aware of the venue or time so i thought maybe we can't meet.
only on that day i found out the time and place. so i brought eric along.
during the concert joey asked if we wanna go to a christian ship at vivo.
we just decide on the spot and that's how we meet. tang jie is also not aware...
we didn't purposely left out anyone. i think ng mun didn't thought i could make it, she just simply ask.

i always meet tang jie with xue ying and xinpei. sometimes xue ying is not there. sometimes they left me out.
it's hard to keep everyone together because we are all doing different things. at times i am not aware of anything.
joey is working, tang jie is also working, xinpei is also working.
my school is starting. i never really knowwhat was going on in poly.

but i know sometimes when you want something you must sacrifice.
i always miss my class outing because i wanna be with eric.
i went to the concert to miss my chance doing my homework.
i sleep 3 hours per day during christmas eve and christams so i can celebrate with eric and his friends and i can do my hw.

now that i am older i understand that sometimes you can't turn things your way.
you have to stay positive.
try again.
try harder!
just like studying!
if you want something try and try.

so i try and try to meet up with my friends.
we didn't ask you along to act show.
we really wanted to meet.
maybe it's not even we.
it's me.

sorry...
i will be more sensitive.

i am going genting on 6 7 8 so i won't be able to reply anything.
but i really care.
really.
i really believe that we are great friends too.
i have faith!