I am a girl and I love my blog. My blog has gone through years with me, all the happiness and sadness. I am trying to change the style of my blog to share happier moments. I will be sharing food, travel and different places.

my life seems to revolve around my school and eric only.
if there is no eric, i won't even have a person to share about my life.
yes, there is friends.
new friends are not as close as old friends and new friends have their own close old friends.
maybe my awkward situation cause me to have only eric.
maybe i am too passive? i should keep asking my friends out?
but they seems to have their own life.
that's so impentrable.

maybe maybe... i should just focus on my homework and studies and then treat going out with eric as a form of relaxation.
then i won't feel that my life is so lack of people and i am pathetic.
there are much more people who are pitiful and unfortunate.

sometimes things seems one sided.
i didn't meet up with xinpei and xue ying, due to some circumstances which i don't even know.

my blog seems to be so deserted.
eric seems to be the only one reading it.
i finally understand why people want to give up on blog.
faith will die too?

i must stop grumbling, because i have eric?
maybe i should, i won't make me or anyone happier.
find something happier to do.

i went to some service learning.
it's compulsory and it's for harmoc.
i met a girl who i like=)
i met many children as i do volunteer work but i seem to be able to see them again.

it ended. the venue was at children aid society beside ngee ann poly.
i see many of my harmoc friends went to meet their np friends.
why didn't i?
i just feel that i will be rejected and i don't like that feeling.
( i sound like a kid )
i keep asking people to not to lose faith but i think i have long lost it.

if i have no faith.
how do i hope?
what is there to live?

argh! shuang! must study!
kick off those stupid thinking!
you must clear your homework!!! and score well in a level in next year!

so i should just ignore every other thing in my life?
but i am not happy at all.
not a tiny bit.
in fact i am feelin so sad recently.
maybe it's because i am having my pms.

i just don't seem to fit in.
it's my fault right?
and i must force myself to ignore that point and keep studying.
that's the right thing right?
my life don't seem right.

stop!!!!!!!!!!

study!