I am a girl and I love my blog. My blog has gone through years with me, all the happiness and sadness. I am trying to change the style of my blog to share happier moments. I will be sharing food, travel and different places.

i had an arguement.
with him.
it really hurt me to know that he don't know me well...
and he didn't appreciate what i had done.

i am sorry for being bad temper and also short temper.
i am just not that good right?

you are off again.

Hey sheryl, i hope you are fine=)
把所有的事都看开一点，人生便会快乐一点。=）
地球不断地在转，生活在二十一世纪的我们必须不停地与时间赛跑才能生存。
我们长大了，相信你也在已发现安。
成长的岁月里我们认识了残酷的事实，世界一点也不美丽。
社会好丑陋，人心好污秽。
可是无论如何，我们还是得被时间推着走。
长大了，要不步入社会了，人们对我们的要求越来越高，我们变得更辛苦。
所有的事都要自己争取，这是生存之道。
能帮自己就只有自己吧了。
加油！
希望你真的了解不是每件事都会如愿，我们得靠自己争取自己要的。
每个人都有自己要走了路，身边的人会不断得变。
我们会与过去的朋友疏远，时间会变得更少，这都是无可厚非的。
可人们都喜欢自己的朋友所以愿意牺牲时间而努力的相聚。
努力不一定会有成果，因为须有，天，时，地，利，人，和。
一定的尽量看开才能开心一点。

ok... i shall talk about my own problems now....
i was just telling kai ling the other day i am fine...
yesterday i just had fever and i missed my ogl workshop.
should have just go home yesterday.
but i didn't finish my chem hw.
sigh.
it's all over... just forget about it.
there is just hw and hw and hw.
my phy teacher says jc2 is very packed so we don't have time to relax.
but i am so tired...
my body want a break too.
my physics is lagging by so much.
omg...
at least there is no more holidays homework to rush out to meet the deadline.
jia you chen shuang.
A! ah!
if you don't have a there is no point in jc at all!
you can do it!

i think i shall give myself a break...
mood swing makes my heart ache a little and cause tears to flow for no reason...
i am like psychopatic.
then there is the cram...
how do i do my work =(

i just keep feeling very lonely and am very short temper...

hate myself...

my mood swing... where are you?
it felt so lonely...

bad mood simply shouted at my classmate =(
i apologise don't worry, but i am not really brave in such stuff so i use sms =(

what is happening to me?
just lack of sleep?
or am i that stress?

don't really like myself now.
why is there always so much work argh!!!

i really hate susan nigam
childish lao auntie
..............

suffocating from hw.
i can't breathe!!!

suffered from sunburnt...
on face and collarbone area.
i miss eric =) i will see you soon!

hey, sheryl.
i'm sorry.
i'm never good with words, maybe my eq is pretty much none.
but i didn't mean to hurt you. really.
i just wanted express my side of story, what had happened to me.
i still like you a lot, you are still my cherished friend.
i just hope you will understand... we didn't plan anything... it's all coincidental...

maybe because i retained and non of my old friends did.
i have been left out so often that i am used to it.
i really do believe it's inevitable. so i start treating as it as i miss some event, that's all.
the earth don't revolve around me, i can't expect too much.
i can't expect everyone to wait for me.
ask the previous batch of aj students to all retained and accompany.
i will survive alone and be more independant.

i still love all friends and will try my best to meet them up=) try my best but if it's not meant to be... just let it go... let your heart breathe... it will thank you because it will have more space to care and love.

take care my dear friend.
after 10 years 20 years 30 years 40 years you will still be my dear friends.
haha!

I realise that it's hard to meet up after we went to separate schools.
Because we are all acending in different directions.

'09 for me was very busy too.
i have to work very hard because i don't want to be despised again.
to be treated like mud.
i can't forget victor telling me,"haha retainee! haha!"
yes that same victor from 4e from kranji.

so i studied hard and other times i was with eric.
i had to juggle with my studies and relationship and my that tuition.
it's very tiring.

when my exams were over i went to read joey's blog and i got very sad.
i felt so guilty that i wasn't aware that she is unable to cope with her studies.
it's sad that she felt that her a level is failing.
now i understand why she is so shock that i retain too.
it's not surprise but guilt.

then there is once i was suppose to meet xue ying and xinpei.
they forgotten me. really.
they met up first thinking that i was in school.
when i had already called them up to tell them my school was over even before they left home.
they just don't remember then they tell me they are going to go home and ask me not to come.
what should i do? hate them? i won't.
because i believe i will forgive them, they are my friends.
i did. i also believe that there is another part of story.

Remember i once ask to meet up for movie screening?
only joey reply me. she thanked me for organising.
then ng mun reply me asking me if i wanna watch joey's concert. i said yes.
but i wasn't aware of the venue or time so i thought maybe we can't meet.
only on that day i found out the time and place. so i brought eric along.
during the concert joey asked if we wanna go to a christian ship at vivo.
we just decide on the spot and that's how we meet. tang jie is also not aware...
we didn't purposely left out anyone. i think ng mun didn't thought i could make it, she just simply ask.

i always meet tang jie with xue ying and xinpei. sometimes xue ying is not there. sometimes they left me out.
it's hard to keep everyone together because we are all doing different things. at times i am not aware of anything.
joey is working, tang jie is also working, xinpei is also working.
my school is starting. i never really knowwhat was going on in poly.

but i know sometimes when you want something you must sacrifice.
i always miss my class outing because i wanna be with eric.
i went to the concert to miss my chance doing my homework.
i sleep 3 hours per day during christmas eve and christams so i can celebrate with eric and his friends and i can do my hw.

now that i am older i understand that sometimes you can't turn things your way.
you have to stay positive.
try again.
try harder!
just like studying!
if you want something try and try.

so i try and try to meet up with my friends.
we didn't ask you along to act show.
we really wanted to meet.
maybe it's not even we.
it's me.

sorry...
i will be more sensitive.

i am going genting on 6 7 8 so i won't be able to reply anything.
but i really care.
really.
i really believe that we are great friends too.
i have faith!